i want it all inside of you

as much as you feel the need to bash The Maine or
say how overrated and gay they are, ima pause and
let you know that they are one of two bands that
can literally make me giddy.

blurrrrrrrrrrrrrrg

jesus, school's been stressing me out. i hate summer school. last summer i didn't mind it, but that's because i didn't have plans or didn't care about hanging out with anyone. this summer, i just want a break to chill out and do nothing, but of course i fucked myself over so i can't. as usual. but anyhoo, i just needed to come on here and vent about how fucking stressful my school is right now. like, i've never hated biology more than now. and i swear, my teacher's know EXACTLY the type of assignments i hate doing and they just want to torture me, so they give me those assignments. NO I DON'T WANT TO MAKE A CARTOON VERSION OF HAMLET AND MODERNIZE THE LANGUAGE, COSTUMES, AND SETTINGS! AND NO, I DON'T WANT TO WRITE A TWO PAGE PAPER ON VIOLENCE, HARASSMENT, AND ABUSE! SHEESH! i have no artistic merit whatsoever, i can't draw a STICK FIGURE without fucking it up.

but anyways, i just needed to vent. carry on now. :)

i love you.

to be perfectly honest, i have never understood racism. or homophobia. i just can never grasp the idea of how someone can hate another person for something they have no control over? how can you hate someone for how they were born?! it just doesn't make sense to me and frankly, it makes me so angry that i could just cry. i don't get why this world is full of so much hate about things we cannot control. if i was running this world, every day would be a nice 78 degrees with a slight breeze here and there, it would get dark at eleven pm, it would be warm all night long, everyone would love to hug and there would be no hate for things that are out of our control. oh, and i'd be dating ian somerhalder. :) seriously though, i could go on forever about how we need to have equal rights for gays and that everyone needs to get out of their ignorant, close mind and look around. how is two men or two women getting married affecting your life? all they want to do is have proof of their love and commitment toward each other, and until gay marriage is completely legal, i'm never marrying. it's not fair that i can marry eighteen people in vegas and get divorced and two people who love each other cannot marry because it is "wrong". how the fuck is loving someone else 'wrong'? and how is having different colored skin, eyes, and a different culture and heritage wrong? answer me that, and you win life.

now, on to less angering things :)

if i could have anything in the world, all i would want is for everyone in the world to be happy with what they have, because at the end of the day, we are all just human. we are all unique, beautiful, and capable people and the fact that we can just breathe for free and be on this earth right now is absolutely incredible and the exact definition of amazing. and it's something that we all take for granted and i'll be the first to admit it. but from now on, i'm going to start taking notice of the small things and the fact that i'm here, alive, happy, healthy, beautiful, and a little bit insane. and i love it.
and i love you, whoever you are reading this.

urgggggg

i fucking hate summer school. 'specially biology.
if i wanted to learn about sponges and jellyfish,
i would become a marine biologist!
gah!