Monday, May 17, 2010

my life, simplified.

[ ] I am shorter than 5’4.
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I wear glasses
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles.

FAMILY

[x] I’ve sworn at my parents.
[ ] I’ve run away from home.
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[x] I want to adopt someday.
[ ] I’ve lost a child.

SCHOOL/WORK

[x] I’m in school.
[ ] I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I’ve missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I’ve been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I’ve stolen something from my job/school
[ ] I’ve been fired.

EMBARASSMENT

[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I’ve snorted while laughing.
[x] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
[ ] I’ve glued my hand to something
[x] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I’ve had my trousers rip in public.

HEALTH

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I’ve gotten stitches.
[ ] I’ve broken a bone.
[x] I’ve had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I’ve sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I’ve had chicken pox.
[ ] I have/had asthma.


TRAVELING

[ ] I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I’ve been on a plane.
[ ] I’ve been to Canada
[ ] I’ve been to Mexico
[ ] I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I’ve been to Japan.
[ ] I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I’ve been to Europe.
[ ] I’ve been to Africa.

EXPERIENCES

[x] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[x] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[x] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I’ve played spin the bottle.
[ ] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[ ] I’ve been skiing
[ ] I’ve been in a play.
[ ] I’ve met someone in person from the Internet.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
[ ] I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I’ve played chicken.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[ ] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I’ve eaten Sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.

RELATIONSHIPS

[x] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
[ ] I’ve told someone I loved them and didn’t get a clear response.
[x] I’ve felt rejected even if I wasn’t.
[ ] I’ve loved someone I knew a friend was already in love with.

HONESTY

[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test.
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school.

BAD TIMES

[x] I’ve consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I shut others out when I’m depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with anorexia or bulimia.
[x] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.
[ ] I’m addicted to self harm.
[x] I’ve woken up crying.

DEATH

[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone dying.

MATERIALISM

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.

RANDOM

[ ] I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I obsess over grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name
[x] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day
[x] I can cook.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, black or blue.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school. (if I could)
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online a lot.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a roach in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[ ] I’m good at remembering names
[ ] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life

sometimes i feel ugly

sometimes i'll pass a girl in the store and wish i had her legs, her arms, her smile, her hair, her etc. i'll wake up with a zit on my chin and let it ruin the rest of my day. sometimes i'll go back to my twelve year old self with a broken heart and feel vulnerable. sometimes i cry because everything i wear makes me look fat, or i have no clothes or i look hideous no matter how much mascara i cake on. sometimes i tell myself i'm worthless and that no one will ever want to be with me. sometimes i cry for no reason or for every reason. sometimes i feel like the only teenager on the planet that hasn't had a real relationship, or hasn't been kissed or held hands or been told they're loved and worth everything in the world.

but then i think about everything i do have, like an amazing family, an amazing best friend who just so happens to be a dog, a best guy friend who is me in male form, a best girl friend who is my twin when it comes to food, a best friend who happens to be my sister and the only person i think i've ever been completely myself with. i think about all the inside jokes i have with everyone i've ever been friends with, i think about how amazing it is to be a unique set of genetics, alive and breathing with no serious conditions and just two legs to carry me throughout life. i think about how awesome it is that i can walk two steps and have clean water from a faucet and food to eat and a roof over my head. i think about how insignificant the bumps and obstacles in my life are and it makes absolutely everything okay.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

bill maher is my hero

wurd.

i agree with him on pretty much everything he says about religion and a lot of the political things as well.

i've never really been one to dabble into political convos and shit because i don't get politics. i don't understand anything about politics and i never have. buuuut, watching Real Time With Bill Maher has opened my eyes to a lot of political bullshit and it's made me understand some of it in a humorous format. (which i appreciate and need a lot of the time to understand things, haha.)

nobutsrsly, the guy is funny as fuck and makes so much sense it hurts.

watch his documentary, Religulous. that movie owns.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

fut the wuck

yeah, i said it.

oh and ps.
i dont give a flying fuck about anything anymore. :)
and i mean that sincerely and not as a negative thing.

i'm here to live my life how i want and be whoever i wanna be.
today, i'm sanchez zimmerman and i'm here to rumble!

no but srsly, i'm just gonna be me from now on.
i've seen too many lame people and too many two faced losers to start a new race.
and that is one race i don't want to be in.

so yeah.

I AM CARLEY, HERE ME ROAR!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

i swear i'm going through menopause

i've been having hot flashes all day long.
i'm DYING of heat in this house.