working out is hard to do.

i worked out today. i did good, but went a bit overboard and had to take a small break in the midst of it all. it was exhausting and i nearly died, i swear! but i am very happy that i finally worked out. i was doing SO FUCKING GOOD at eating well, and i had set out a whole work out schedule, but then i got sick. and ate two packets of saltines and a couple of cans of soup and broth within two and a half days. then, i went banana sandwich and ate like a crazy fool for the next four or five days. i gained three pounds. i know it doesn't sound like much, but i was disappointed. my will power that i had recently gained disappeared into thin air. so, today i started back up on eating well and it is hard like it was at the beginning and i was pretty hungry throughout the day, but i've recently been able to ignore my hunger until absolutely necessary. that sounds horrible, but my stomach conditions make me digest food faster and become hungry quicker, i believe that's why i'm hungry all the time. there's no other explanation.

but anyways, i'm going to start tracking my weight loss/toning up/eating better and becoming healthy trek on here. i think it'll keep me motivated enough to get in shape so i can wow everyone with my rocking bod this summer. ;)