So I'll pace the halls to see if I could find a hole in something

soo, lately shit has been going down. mainly in the drama department, and i don't mean performing arts. hahahaha. anyhoozer, i'm sure you all know what i mean because the only ones following me are my friends atm. but, personally, i think everything about it is bullshit and certain peoples are stirring up the drama cauldron a little bit too much. they fucked in mike's bathroom. she deliberately went behind kam's back. mike needs an apology. kam needs an apology. END OF THE STORY. i would appreciate an apology, i think it'd be nice if i got one and they meant it, but i don't want one and i sure as hell don't need one. i was just a bystander;it wasn't my house and i didn't just talk to them the day before. sure, i could say it was disrespectful to all of us, but it was mainly only disrespectful to mike, his house, and his family. the only thing that made me so mad about it AT FIRST was the fact that they blatantly lied about it right after it happened. i know i have my (many) blonde moments, but c'mon! we're not that fucking daft! but i got over it within a few days, i'm not one to hold a grudge. (i wish i could though. i forgive too easily)

so, later on in the weeks afterward everyone kept regurgitating it and it would ALWAYS come up every time we hung out and saw each other. i liked hearing everybody's opinions about it, but after a while i knew what we were all going to say before we said it because we discussed it so often. after mike's house on a friday night, me, kam, arsh, and halle all sat in h's van and talked about it, all out on why everyone was mad and ect. it got out of control because everyone else was yelling and is stubborn as hell. i can be stubborn, but it's always stupid things like when hailey and i are laying on her bed or about to watch the movie and neither of us want to get up to turn off the light, so we sit there and try to outlast each other on who is finally going to give in and turn off the light. i usually win. anyway, kam and arsh wouldn't let each other finish without interrupting and yelling, i was just sitting there quietly trying not to get in the middle but i did try to control the situation i believe. it resulted in arsh storming off. at first, i found it immature and lame, but i now know her exact reasons and i give it to her. plus, she didn't know the whole side to why exactly kam was pissed at katt, so i understand why she thought he was being a total asshole. after she left, me kam halle all sat there until two or two thirty in the AM, homes. so i thought it was all good and hashed out, even though our beloved mike wasn't there. rofl.

so, later on in the week kam and mike come over to talk about it because at this time kam still hadn't told arsh the whole story and arsh was pissed off at him. (I BELIEVE THAT IS WHY) we talked about it for a bit, but only came to the same conclusion every pointless sit down erupted to: mike and kam both are owed apologies. but, kam doesn't want to forgive katt just yet and i don't really blame him. sure, i miss her and wish we'd stayed as tight as we got in that little time, but if he doesn't want to, sofuckingwhat. i do miss colin, though. rofl, he's just hilarious and a really awesome guy. nottomention easy on the eyes... but, it'd be unfair to hang with colin and still be mad at katt, so we're going to have to deal with them together or not at all. which sorta sucks seeing as how i prefer them individually. bahaha, how mean.

anyway, i think that'd it would be pretty rad to have ALL OF US sit down and discuss everything and why we're all mad and pissed and over it, ect. but that will never happen, because everyone will interrupt each other, people will get pissed and storm off, and it could potentially ruin everything. i do NOT however think that kylee should be included in this huge sit down. that doesn't mean i don't want her or dislike her by any means, but i think that what happened between her and katt should stay between her and katt and be resolved by her and katt. end of story. it doesn't involve any of us except like, colin, possibly. but, i wish we could all be mature adults (bahahah) for a sit down to discuss it all and everybody's position and opinion behind the whole shebang, but that won't happen. so until, then, i am content and happy with just having arsh, halle, kam, mike, myself, and the occasional guest in our circle at mike's house.

(holyfuckballs. this is a long post and i don't even know the reasoning behind it. sort of just venting, telling of the story from my eyes, and letting ya'll know how i feel to an extent.)


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title; mayday parade - walk on water or drown