i'm terrified for what's to come of the future.

that is all.

xoxo

New Year's Eve

forever alone. yes, i will be spending a night of parties around the world alone. with my fucking dog. probably on tumblr. probably watching some dumb ass shit on the television as the numerous stations count down 2010. yeah, my life is fucking awesome.

it's okay, i spend every fucking year alone.

2010, you were mediocre at best. you had shining moments such as HP7, Easy A, Pretty Little Liars..... and that's about it. 2011, i hope you are better.

Resolutions:
-Get my shit together.
-Get a job.
-Exercise regularly.
-Watch less tv.
-Learn to play my ukulele.
-Walk my dog.
-Cook better food.
-Be more honest about everything.
-Find a best friend other than my fucking dog.
-Be less socially awkward.

i have single handedly ruined my own life.

that's the worst part. it was all me.

i've lost all hope

for my ever being in a relationship.
i don't think the day will come.




....do i smell?

It's all just a bunch of bullshit.
So, fuck you.

I find it to be very funny how much you can realize about your life in such a small amount of time over the smallest things.

But during this past week, I have realized a lot. And it sucks when the people you put number one don't have you on that same level. And it sucks when you realize the last time you really had that 'best friend' experience was from second to sixth grade.
But, I guess it just goes to show that in the end, you can only depend on yourself. And I realize that now.

i'm falling apart